Archive for December, 2005

Inspiration for Christmas

Wednesday, December 21st, 2005

Well it’s just about Christmas and I thought a nice little inspirational quote would be nice hold over for the holidays.

“When you have a strong sense of what you want, no one can push you off track.”

Back to 2

Friday, December 16th, 2005

Well Kid, it’s you and me and maybe this is good. Lindsay had good things to read and sometimes a bit long winded but also very interesting. I haven’t been very good at blogga lately, too busy with centre and haven’t done my walks and/or drank water. I have to get back into a routine. The centre will not be serving lunches next week and we will be closed during holidays. So next week I have to get back , no I mean tomorrow I have to get back on track. You have done so well and well, I haven’t . I have learned a bit about myself. I eat when I am worried and you know me I worry about everything – so now I have to find something else to munch on when I am worried – Blogga sometimes helps, as I am typing, but then sometimes it made it worse. I ate as I typed. Cold weather has kept in inside and that is a poor excuse – last year I walked everyday with Duke – so I have to smarten up – At the centre I eat cookies – so I told some of the members that maybe if we had granola bars/ oranges/apples maybe we wouldn’t eat the sweet stuff. We have lots of diabetic in the group and serving all that sugar isn’t good for them or me. So I will try a bit harder. So look for my blog – as I will look for yours.

Last Post

Tuesday, December 13th, 2005

Hey there ladies. Just thought I’d let you know this is going to be my last post over here on walka. Things are getting busy for me and I don’t have a whole lot of spare time these days for blogging, or much of anything else for that matter! Thanks for your support and the little enhancement this has been for helping me make healthier choices. I’ve learned a lot in the short time I’ve been contributing. I wish you both the best with walka blogga! Keep on walkin’! ;)

Love,
Linz

Gym Diva

Thursday, December 8th, 2005

Hey there walka girls. Well, I went to the gym twice last week on Monday and Wednesday, then didn’t feel like it, didn’t feel like it, didn’t feel like it, didn’t feel like it, didn’t feel like it, didn’t feel like it and didn’t feel like it. Last night I was soooooo sleepy, I thought I was going to die, but somehow I mustered the willingness and the ability to pack my gym bag. I know as long as I’m packed and ready to go in the morning, it leaves me one less excuse not to go to the gym.

This morning, I grabbed my bag and my iPod and off to work I went. I had a great workout at lunch, 35 minutes on the Elliptical. Afterwards I had a yummy smelling shower, as I got to use my new Spiced Apple Cider body wash. Mmm! I then topped that off with my new Cinnamon Buns body souffle, and I was ready to go back to work.

As I was putting on my make-up, this girl who had been working out beside me came over and asked me what body wash I use. I showed her, and we got all excited about Philosophy beauty products (she is also a collector). Someone else in the changeroom that she works with came in and said, “what smells so good?” and she said, “my new friend here just used some Philosophy Apple Cider body wash!” That made me feel special. :) It’s neat to be able to connect with other gym divas and not feel out of place. How fun!

Another interesting thing happened to me when I was leaving the gym. I decided to try the scale there today, and it told me that I was 10 lbs. lighter than my scale at home has been telling me. Verrrrry interesting! So now I don’t know which scale to believe. I do know that my scale at home is at least 4 lbs. over, but 10 lbs. seems like a bit too much of a variation. The scale at the gym is pretty old though, so it probably isn’t calibrated properly. I’ll keep going by the number on my scale at home. Now all I need to do is find the willingness to stop stepping on it every 3 hours while I’m at home! :P

I do have one quam with going to the gym right now: wearing my glasses. It’s hard to wipe the sweat off my face while I’m working out, it’s hard to have a shower and be able to see what I’m doing, it’s hard to put my glasses on after my workout and not have them fog up on me, and it’s hard to put on my make-up because I can’t see the mirror without my glasses on. Soooo, I think it’s time to go back to contact lenses on a more permanent basis. That also means investing in a new pair, because the ones I have are getting pretty scratchy. In the meantime though, I’ll put up with my PITA glasses and keep going back to the gym. It’s for my own good, even if it does annoy me! :)

I also made some great food choices today. I still need to work on my timing a bit, but more often than not I seem to be making healthier choices these days, which I’m very grateful for.

I have a little bit of a challenge tonight, because I’m going home to Chinese food leftovers. I am hoping that I can make it a loving and nourishing meal. I struggled with the Chinese food last night and ate more than my body needed, even though I did take a precaution before having my meal (phone a friend!). But I haven’t let my slip from yesterday deter me from getting back on track again today. Maybe if I really find the willingness and the ability to nourish and love myself tonight, I will choose to eat something other than the Chinese food leftovers; even though I want them really really really really bad!!! I’ll report back later and let you know how it went. :)

Let me know how you all are doing tonight! Haven’t heard from you in a couple days mom, let us know how you’re doing!

P.S. in case you were wondering what PITA stands for, it’s Pain-In-The-Ass! ;)

Dream

Thursday, December 8th, 2005

Thought I’d share my dream from last night or at least part of it. I was working at the radio station again and we had this cupboard full of a whole bunch of tubes of frosting and I pulled out my favorite one from which was apparently bubble gum and was just sitting in this hallway eating it. A little strange and I’m not sure what it means but apparently it was important in my dream that I be eating this frosting. :)

Good Walking, Bad Chocolate

Thursday, December 8th, 2005

Well the title pretty much says the whole story, night all.

Hehe Just Kidding. The last few days I’ve been doing a lot of activities that require some serious walking and I know that if I hadn’t kept up with it over that last few months I couldn’t have hacked it.

Monday: Out to Surrey again for CRA Job Testing, the bus stop was a fair distance from my final destination (it’s Surrey thought so that happens). The testing started at 8:00 and that’s about when I got there so I had to do a serious hustle once I got off the bus. I wasn’t the only one though, there was three of us and I couldn’t let them get that ahead of me. I had a different set of tests come the afternoon so I had about an hour to waste so I went over to the little corner store (beside the bus stop) to grab something to eat. I made some seriously bad decisions in there, a diet Nestea (the one good decision), two chocolate bars and a small bag of cheezies. I ate the snickers and half the bag of cheezies and then threw them out in disgust with myself and saved the second chocolate bar for later. It would be nice to see a convenience store stock some healthier alternatives for a change, as I tend to revert to my chocolate behaviors when I’m in a hurry cause I have to pee. At this point my back was starting to hurt a bit so I started heading back and walking a long distance with a sore back when I really really have to pee is just not fun but I just kept telling myself one step at a time and eventually it would go away. I took a wrong turn and had to walk even further but eventually made it to the bathroom, then proceeded to have and argument with the door in this midget sized bathroom stall. After that things got better (after I got back out of the stall that is), my back was OK again and my bladder was happy. After I finished my second exam I walked back to the bus stop again. So it was a good walking day if you also include the walking to and from and in between bus stops (took the stairs at Surrey Central again instead of the elevator, down not up, but it all helps).

Tuesday: Another test, this one for my H&R class so that was just my usual walk there and back but when I got back Simon was just heading out to take some pictures of the lights around here so we got the chicken in the oven and I went with him. We were out there walking around and taking pictures for about 50 minutes and got some good pics which I haven’t posted to flickr yet but I will.

Today: Took a break from walking today but had all sorts of chocolate, pancake, cookie and bacon cravings. Fortunately making pancakes at midnight wasn’t really something I was in to and we didn’t have any of the other stuff so I just reminisced about the chocolate bar I had after dinner (just one not multiple).

Tomorrow: It’s my last day of class so I think in honor of that I’m going to leave early and take a nice long route to class, stop and get a bottle of water and try going a whole day without the chocolate that currently has a hold over me. I think it’s getting to be about that time of the month and I always have a lot more cravings around that time which probably explains the pancake, cookie, bacon thing tonight (not all together of course). Keeps your fingers crossed for me and maybe I’ll pick up some more lollipops that seemed to be working at the time but we’ve since run out and that could explain the chocolate.

Playing with Fonts

Thursday, December 8th, 2005

So I started downloading some Fonts tonight cause although the one I was using for the headlines is cool there was always something about it that I didn’t think I liked, so I spent a whole bunch of time getting new fonts and then installing it to Walka and playing with the settings. I then realized that the font I’d chosen was the same exact one I’ve got on my regular blog, what a putz!!! So I’ve changed it back, hehe.

UPDATE: I made it a bit smaller and now I’m happy with it, I just couldn’t part with the hearts.

Good Walka Day

Sunday, December 4th, 2005

Friday I was finally starting to feel better, I finally got a good nights sleep so I set out to Surrey for some errands. First off I had to walk down to 7-11 (a few blocks away) to see if I could get a day pass, no such luck as per their usual state of things at that store they didn’t have any. The closest place from there was shoppers (another few blocks) so off I went, I got my bus pass and at this point it was just another couple blocks to the B-Line so I went for it. There’s not a lot of walking between there and Surrey Central Station but I did opt for the stairs instead of the elevator (going down) this time. After another bus ride I was finally able to pick up my letter and start heading back to Van.

Now while I was getting ready to leave I had a quick look at the Translink website and noticed that one of the up escalators wasn’t working at Surrey Central but for some reason once I got back there I rode up the first one just to see if for some reason they were wrong and totally skipped the elevator again. What I realized half way up the first escalator was that you can’t get on the elevator once your up the first flight so instead of looking like a moron and going back down I just starting walking up the second escalator (this is not a small one by any means) I made it up and even held up a few people as I was going slower then they would have like, but too bad, all I cared about was that I was actually taking the stairs and it didn’t really seem to be as big of a deal as it used to.

So after a long circuitous route home another stop in East Van I finally made it home about four hours later, just in time to go do some shopping with Linz. It felt good being out there walking again and I didn’t really have that hard of a time. The whole time I kept thinking “oh it must just be because you’re wearing different shoes”, or “because it’s colder there’s less atmospheric pressure in the air”. Well maybe it’s just because I’ve been doing the work and now I’m seeing the benefits of that work, funny how my mind works like that.

Then Linz picked me up and we headed of to Big Al’s in Richmond to look at some fishies. That is a huge fish store and so we ended up doing quite a bit of walking around in there not to mention the sauna like benefit of all the fish tanks. Needless to say I was pretty warm by the time we left and starting to feel the effects of being out walking all day. I did take a break while we were in there, had a seat on the Koi pond. Now we weren’t done yet, next we went to BeautyMark and due to the horrendous parking situation down on Hamilton Street I got to do a little more walking, not to mention the half hour we spent looking around in there.

My feet were definitely a little sore by the time we went for Dinner and finally made our way back home but it felt great to start the walking process after my cold on such a positive note.

I probably could have gone for the salad at dinner instead of fries but on a positive note I wasn’t able to finish it all and left a bit of both my burger and fries. On a totally unrelated note it was fun trying to figure out the nature of the relationship of the people sitting just behind us. We finally settled on either parole officer/parolee or father/daughter.

The Battle of the Cupcakes

Saturday, December 3rd, 2005

Tonight I made my way to the grocery store to get some fixings to make a delicious meal for Youl and I. I walked into Safeway, grabbed a grocery basket, and off I went. This Safeway strategically places their bakery section right by the front door, and normally I just walk right on by. I generally don’t bring snacks or desserts into the house; I’m not sure why exactly, it’s just not something I have ever done very much. I found myself stopping in the bakery section though, and I grabbed a pack of 12 heavily iced mini Christmas cupcakes.

I trudged around the store and got the rest of my groceries, then had some difficulty getting one item. I ended up leaving without it, and had to try to find it somewhere else. I wasn’t able to, so back to Safeway I went. Upon my return I actually did find what I needed, bought it, and then left. This all transpired in the space of about 45 minutes, so at this point I was very frustrated and just wanted to get my 5 bags of groceries home immediately.

I walked home with groceries in tow, and came upstairs. I unpacked everything, put the new poo bags away and then immediately zoomed in on the cupcakes. I had one… two… three… four… then I stopped… chugged some Diet Pepsi straight out of the bottle… turned back to the cupcakes… and… ERRRRRRCH! I came out of my cupcake daze and realized what I was doing. I rushed to the phone and called one of my friends from my therapy group. She didn’t answer her phone, but I left her a rambling message about the powerful cupcakes. I told her voicemail that I wanted to throw them out, but hadn’t done it yet. I hung up, and called another one of my friends from my therapy group. I left her a voicemail too, but didn’t mention the cupcakes because I didn’t want her boyfriend to think I was a crack-head. I got off the phone, and then just said out loud, “please give me the willingness and the ability to throw out the cupcakes! I don’t need them right now!” Suddenly, the scales tipped in my favor. My urge to throw the cupcakes out became stronger than my urge to eat the last 8 cupcakes. I went back in the kitchen, took one cupcake out and gave it to Prasila. I took another cupcake out and gave it to Mango. I used the wrappers from Prasila’s and Mango’s cupcakes to mash the hell out of the remaining 6 cupcakes, and promptly tossed them in the trash.

I was not defeated. :)

Thank you :)

Saturday, December 3rd, 2005

Thank you both so much for the encouragement. I weighed myself yesterday and ooops no good news. But I am making progress – I put off until later for comfort food. It is working and eventually it will show on the scale. I work at the centre a couple of days a week and have lunch there. My problem that I am facing and will be changing is that they give us a great meal – soup/sandwich/dessert. Yesterday for lunch I had spare ribs, rice, dessert. To me this is a supper – and we went out for supper for a 5 course meal at the College. So I have to cut out big lunches and/or eat only one BIG meal a day. This is all very good for Bob but not my little bitty stomach. So when I go to the centre, I intend on working through lunch, have my water by my side. I am such a worry wort – that when I am worried I eat, so I have to work on my eating while worrying – so now that I have found a problem and can work with it. Thanks to my two blogga friends. I starting knitting but haven’t brought it downstairs to work on it during T.V. Lately I haven’t had time or energy to watch T.V. Thursday is the on ly day lately that I watch T.V. in the evening. I am eithe too tired or too busy on computer and when I do sit in front of T.V. I now fall asleep – getting old – well maybe just a bit. This senior centre has turned out to be a bigger challenge than I expected and have to work on slowing down and letting other people do the work. I want the centre to work out so much, that I plunge in and do just about everything. There are others that are there every day and are doing lots of work, but I am doing all the WORRYING at home, in the car, during meal time, whenever. Having Michelle/Simon here at Christmas time will give me a bit of a break – then I will worry about them. Just kidding. I also worry about the dogs. We are away so much, that they stay at home alone a lot – too much for my liking. That is anothe story for another day – So today, I have a wedding to perform, everything done so okay there. Going out to play card tonight with new found friends from the centre (who are our age) So this will help release some pressure (my doing) Will call this it for today – Miss both of you and next summer we are coming to Vancouver – so we will see Lindsay and Youl –